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[18 May 2004|08:41am]

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<3 [25 Apr 2004|09:44am]
[ mood | bored ]

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[22 Apr 2004|03:33am]
I can't sleep at all
im going to get aron in 2 and half hours
im so happy , you have noooo idea. i miss that boy so much
im gonna smother him.
it sucks he has to work today though :(
he got me presents
im so excited
awww yeaaaa
today will
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[21 Apr 2004|03:18pm]
I'm about to go to work
working today is going to be soo good , because it will kill the time and make it go by faster, and then in the morning i get to go get my baby. mhmmmmmmmmmmmmm oh man i miss him so much.
im going to be glued to his side for like a week , ahahha.
leland watns to come stay this weekend, thats cool and all, i love leland. but i wanted aron/sarah time.

we'll see what happens.
i gotta go though.

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[20 Apr 2004|02:13pm]
[ mood | excited ]

wuhh ohh



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[20 Apr 2004|12:30am]
Aron , im mad at him.

that is all.
i wish it were thursday so i didnt have to try and figure out what your doing while im not there....
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[19 Apr 2004|11:43am]
mmm i have to go shower and get ready for work.

oh man oh man , TWO MORE DAYS and then aron will be home. whos happy?? ME.

its so nice outside , i love this weather. mhmm , mhmm.
im gonna go eat and stuff.
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shes gone. [19 Apr 2004|01:52am]
[ mood | bored ]

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heart to heart [18 Apr 2004|04:44am]

oh man i miss you , like crazy, crazy i say
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[17 Apr 2004|11:58am]
[ mood | mad mad mad ]

Today is going to be terrible , this is how i know:
Its the first day of my period , which means the worst day of it.
i have to close tonight at work , and lets see, i didnt leave there until 1:30 in the fucking morning last night. Then i have to turn around and work at 9 the next morning. oh and , my schedule next week SUCKS , considering i have to close EVERY SINGLE NIGHT and i only have thursday and sunday off. the cramps are coming on and i feel like shit.
i miss aron , and im mad at my work. anyone care to try and cheer me up ?

ooohh and im fucking HUNGRY! >:[

have a good day.

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* * * * [16 Apr 2004|09:19am]
[ mood | lazy ]

stepping out in the morning can be one of the best things to do.
you should do the same thing, you don't know how refreshed you'll feel.

So , the plans for today are:
Get my paycheck and go to the bank. get all that taken care of. theeeennn go to the apartment and sit and be lazy until its time to go to work. and hope that he calls me at some point today , since well i havent talked to him since about 6 oclock YESTERDAY. but it's understandable , his phone service isnt all that great on the other side of the contienent. I don't really feel like working today , im kind of upset at the fact that ive had to close EVERY day this week . why can't i get morning hours? OR FRIDAYS OFF , like the one bitch , whos been there less time then me and doesnt do jack shit but yet this is her second friday in a row , OFF. sound fair? think not. shes part time , part time is NOT supposed to get weekend days off , unless asked for of course. but she didnt ask for it. the little bitch.

so its shower time , and then im off for the day. have a good day <3.

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[16 Apr 2004|01:51am]
[ mood | creative ]

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[16 Apr 2004|12:16am]
[ mood | missing you ]

I went to ikea today , found some things i like. Then i come home and find out my checking account is really screwed up so i cant buy anything anyways, and now i cant do arons surprise like i wanted to. because well , im horrible at managing money and i have none at the moment, in fact im overdrawn a good amount. isnt that nice? yea , not really.

Good thing i get paid tommorow.

It's friday , 5 more days to go. then my world will be normal again.

I've realized i can be very mean sometimes , like i will get really cranky and its not the person im around , its just that i get irritated very easily. and i think i make people feel bad because of that , and it sucks. I'm just a very out of the loop type person , like i don't stay involved with everyone , im on my own. and i guess its weird when i get around people. im not used to it.

Oh man , desiree played this cd for me today , i loved it. i dont know who it is though but i will find out. its some hip-hop stuff. reminds me of like aesop rock , or scarub. aron will love it.

speaking of aron , i have to go call him now <3

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[15 Apr 2004|03:02pm]
Day One of : Keep my mind off aron being gone.

- clean my car

- clean my room

- begin clearing out of all my old junk

- go to ikea , get prices for furniture

- paint

- go get desiree

- keep a smile on my face

so far , so good.
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empty [14 Apr 2004|07:24am]
okay so i dropped aron off at the airport , its only been about an hour and a half and im already dreading every day until next Wed.

think im silly , for being upset over 8 days. but its 8 days that will feel like a month , because im around him so much. this is just odd , not having aron around.

i dont know what im going to do with myself.

probably just sit
and stay here @ the apt.
and sleep in his[our] bed
and i dont know...

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Doooooooooooo it! [14 Apr 2004|01:41am]
01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. how well do you think you know me:
06. tell me one good thing about myself:
07. do i believe in God:
08. when you first saw me what was your impression:
.::Put a cock in it.::
10. birthday:
11. my favorite band at the moment:
12. colour eyes:
13. do i have any siblings:
14. have you ever had a crush on me:
15. what's one of my favorite things to do:
16. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
17. anything super special about me:
18. would you consider me a friend:
19. describe me in 3 words:
20. if there were one good nickname for me what would it be:
21. name 5 things i love:
22. do you think i'm good looking:
23. how would you describe me to someone:
24. have we kissed:
25. would you ever date me:
26. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
27. do you think i'm funny:
28. do you think i'm a bitch:
29: do you think i'm annoying:
30: do you think i'm stupid:
31: what do you like most about me:
32: have you ever seen me with my pants off:
33: have you ever seen me cry, if so when?:
34: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
35: have we ever gotten in a fight:
36: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
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Im gonna be lonely [13 Apr 2004|12:27pm]
Aaron is leaving tommorow , for Cali. :(

This is going to be the longest 8 days of my life.
think im silly for stressing over 8 days , but when you practically live with someone, 8 days seems like a long time. i dont know what im going to do with myself.
i know that i need to do things to keep me busy so that i don't over think shit. i will get myself in some sort of slump , i know it.

Im glad he's going though. Danny and Nik need to see him , and he needs to see them and i think a little time apart for us , will do us REAL good.

My family probably hates me right now , im never home. and i know they miss me. i dont know , its weird , i go home and im there for like an hour and i want to leave again, i guess im at that stage in life where you want nothing to do with your family. you just want to be on your own...
But it sucks, because i hate knowing that they are upset because of me.

Work has been going good , im glad to be back at the tysons store. i hated working at potomac mills. those people there were such assholes. and im not the only one who thinks that.

I can't wait for friday , i get paid and boy oh boy do i need it. i have money to give to people. this paycheck none will get spent its all going in the bank. and then
Jenny gets 40 dollars
My sister gets alot of dollars , i cant pay back all that ive borrowed at once though.
then i don't know what.

why do i get the feeling that today is going to suck. work has made aron be in a bad mood and hes going to bring that bad mood home with him. and our last day together before he leaves is going to suck. why do i feel like this.....

hopefully not.

i miss alot of people , i know none of you beleive me when i say it. but i do. i guess ive just gotten to a point where ive seperated myself from everyone to get my shit together. i dont know ,its hard to explain.

well i think this is about the longest post ive made in a long time.
im gonna go eat my french fries and chicken nuggets and enjoy sitting around in my underwear until 3 oclock.

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[10 Apr 2004|01:22pm]
And i am lost ..

so very lost.

Lost in someone , so very amazing.

good luck finding me.

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[07 Apr 2004|09:37pm]
breezy air , record shops, friends, and the sun shining down.

I'd have to say that this has been one of the nicest days this week.

[i hope aron likes his present]
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True colors can never show through.... [07 Apr 2004|02:38pm]
I am feeling very tired , tired of the way things work , the way people are.
Aron said to me today , " i wish i didnt have to work ever"

I wish no one had to work ever , or at least not as much as most people do. But, with out work , then people wouldnt have money , and without money we couldnt do anything. And that is the point, its horrible if you think how much the world revolves around money nowadays , you can't do anything unless you have money. No one just enjoys the simple things, no one appreciates a nice walk and a making some sandwiches...and sitting by a pond.

Thats all i want , i dont want lots and lots of money , i want just enough to provide for me and the people closest to me , and live a simple life.

My ideal life:
- own a little shop of some sort
- have a nice house by the beach
- spend the weekends painting , reading , going out , laughing.
- be with the boy i love.

its all id ever need.
but nothing can be that simple
because the world has become so greedy and materialistic.

its a sad sad thing to think about.

and to be completely honest, makes me quite upset.
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